Narcissistic Silent Treatment

Why does the Narcissist give you the Silent Treatment? The short of it is, this is what they do to gain control and create hurt and pain. It is their way of afflicting Narcissistic Abuse!

Is this the way someone treats you if they really love you?

Just to start, many people confuse the Silent Treatment with No Contact. These are two very different actions and done for very different reasons. Don’t get them confused.

  • When a narcissist uses the Silent Treatment, they do so to hurt you.
  • No Contact is when you stop communication with the narcissist. This gives you an opportunity to think again. When you implement No Contact, it is intending to bring the relationship to its END!

Silence is Deadly

My ex-narcissist says “Silence is DEADLY”. He LOVED to do this to people. It was his sense of asserting control! Most narcissist will assert authority when they can, given it’s their need to be in control. I watched him play this out on ANYONE that would dare to confront him about his behavior and accountability. When he became uncomfortable, he would remove himself from a situation so to not deal with the confrontation following his actions. 

Consciously, my ex-narcissist would implement the Silent Treatment to create an inability to respond to a situation he created. He would rather leave you in a spin without a voice, rather than discuss his wrong doings. This was always very painful, and he knew it was. It was a technique that he learned worked to get what he wanted out of someone. He callously used their “emotions” to get his needs met without regard for the hurt that he afflicted. 

Once you understand the narcissist’s objectives, you will understand why they use the Silent Treatment to manipulate you.

What the Silent Treatment Does

The Silent Treatment cuts you off from communication with the narcissist. They do this at their will and to control you. A Narcissist will use this abusive tactic of dismissal specifically to hurt you! It creates a feeling within you that you are not worthy of the communication. This is done intentionally.

How can someone say they love you and want to hurt you this way?
Really think about that…

There are many reasons a narcissist will implement the Silent Treatment. No matter how they justify their behavior, it is ALWAYS with an intent to afflict EMOTIONAL ABUSE. This act unbalances your psyche and leaves you vulnerable for their follow-up attacks.

They condition you so they can control you again. In short, it serves both roles in the present and future. They want you to submit to their future demands and punish you in the present for challenging them for what they’ve done.

Why they do it?

The Silent Treatment can bring you to your knees. It is their aim to leave you in unfinished turmoil without closure. They knock you off balance to make you an easy future prey to feed upon.

If they can gain the upper hand, they will use it to control your actions and responses in their favor within their demands. Most of the time a narcissist does this, you aren’t even aware of what caused it.

Was it you? Was it them? Is this fixable? What the hell happened?

You will feel devastated by the confusion that it brings, especially when left without an ability to resolve what has happened. This can be very confusing. It’s very cruel for them to leave you in the abyss of their chaos without closure. Remember, it is their chaos that “THEY” created!

Despite knowing that the narcissist is wrong, you feel somehow the silent treatment arose by something you did and now this was all your fault. Of course you would feel this way, they have programmed you to believe that all the failures that occurred in your relationship was all because of you. It is part of their manipulation tactic.

They have brainwashed you throughout your relationship to accept responsibility for whatever has gone wrong. A narcissist will accept no accountability.  You question yourself what you have done to cause the silence and wonder if it will end? Just to skip ahead here, it does!

Imagine now, you are loving someone, that you are actually wondering it “Will they ever talk to me again?”.

Think about that! How crazy is it to wonder if the person you have loved all this time will ever talk to you again? Specifically, only after having a minor falling out that you aren’t even clear as to what happened? If they really loved you as you love them, why would they leave you in such pain? Why would they dismiss you and your feelings in this way? Even though it is hard to acknowledge you must know, this isn’t love. It’s what you want to believe it it, but it’s not real!

Anyone that can do this to someone shows that they have no conscience to the results of their actions toward another. It is degrading, hurtful, a completely belittling of a person and a relationship that you thought you shared. It addition to this, it is very abusive for anyone to afflict such emotional stress upon another.

But then again, they are a narcissist and you… just a supply!

The primary reasons a narcissist does the Silent Treatment. is to feed their sense of power and control over you and the terms of the relationship! They know that it is afflicting harm, and they don’t care!

This isn’t what normal people do!

When in a healthy relationship, sometimes individuals need to take some time away for themselves to think about their future and what their relationship with bring with their partner. 

We periodically need to assess how we feel and what direction we think where the relationship is heading. Most people will give a respectful reason as to their need for “space” or “time”. If they have any emotional attachment, respect or regard for you, they won’t don’t just ghost, leaving you questioning where you stand.

Silence, without explanation is not only disrespectful, but an intentionally evoked dismissal! It shows a complete lack of compassion or regard for the other person. Your feelings don’t matter to the narcissist and they are honestly not concerned how it has left you feeling emotionally.

Specifically, it is their work in progress to control and hurt you. The way they have left you feeling is a part of the conditioning they do for you to accept their future plan of manipulation.

Trust that the narcissist is not thinking about it as much as you are. They will go about their lives and come to revisit you another day, as you tortuously spin without answers.

Normal people will NEVER use the Silent Treatment to afflict harm or punishment against you if they love and care about you!

A partner that does this to you isn’t taking time to rethink or assess anything about your relationship. Don’t think they are ruminating about how they can work things out or what may have gone wrong in your relationship. They really don’t care, unless in case they need you.

They are already actively seeking or have a new source of supply to keep them occupied, you can count on that!

During this time, you can bet the narcissist is out on the prowl. They have a never ending need for attention and are always looking for “better options”. The better option will always be a more vulnerable, gullible, needy supply that will give them what they want and under their terms. They will have status, money, be sexually promiscuous and have little to no expectations from the narcissist.

They New Supply will get lost in the Love Bombing stages and remember they are enchanted by the narcissists false-self. Once the narcissist has met their conquest with the new supply, they will move on to another and so on.

One supply will never be enough, and many will never be that special! So, please don’t be envious, just know you have once been that same source to the narcissist.

The New Supply Test Drive

The narcissist may already be on that test drive with a new supply, which would explain one of the reasons for the silent treatment. They will cause an argument, blame you for it and move on to a new supply, representing to them that you are the crazy one that won’t leave them alone.

The narcissist will have to create a scenario as to why you are still trying to contact them. It certainly will not be explained how they forgot to tell you that the relationship was over, before they started one with the new supply.

You will be represented as the “craze ex” that “won’t leave them alone”. Not a partner that was left in the aftermath of a relationship and being subjected to the Silent Treatment! Meanwhile, you have been left you hanging, without explanation.

A narcissist will be afflicting harm and destruction in the aftermath of every relationship they have had.  This is how it usually works, relationships will overlap. They will triangulate with more than one partner until they are secure with a primary supply. You can be rest assured, the narcissist isn’t ghosting you without being preoccupied by another source of supply.

“A man will never throw away his only pair of shoes”

~ Craig Kenneth

Before the Silent Treatment Ends

There will already be a plan in place to make you feel responsible for what has happened. They will project blame onto you for the reason and cause for the silent treatment.  Surely they will justify the reasons they have done this to you and they will pathologically explain the lies, to the point you may even believe them. 

Pathological narcissists actually believe their own lies, so they can be very convincing!

To witness this first hand is just crazy! It creates a Cognitive Dissonance. You begin to question what the true facts are, verses what the narcissist wants you to believe. Are you seeing the mental illness they suffer from yet here?

The narcissist will try to convince you how they should be held harmless for their awful behavior and lack of regard for your feelings. They will find every excuse to project this blame on to you. They will explain “If only you didn’t….” whatever that is, “…this would have never happened”

They will use every excuse they can conjure up in their twisted minds as why they have given you the silent treatment and the reason for its length of time. This is to make you feel grateful that they have broken the silence and are back… It reminds me of the move “The Shining”.

A Narcissist at their finest! Welcome home… Pumpkin!

You and your feelings will not matter.

You’re placed aside until the narcissist “feels like” dealing with you and this mess that they created. They will treat you as a nuisance should you try to reach out to them. before they are ready to to break their silence.

You are just like a toy they have put away on a shelf. When they grow tired of their new supply, or it doesn’t pan out as they planned, they may entertain taking you out for another go around.

Know beforehand, that you will be the pinnacle of blame for what they have done and you will accept it! If not, they will immediately start the silent treatment again, until you do!

It is equally important to the narcissist that they are not held accountable for their behavior, ALWAYS! If someone gets too close to their true-self and call them out, they will pull back and cause this great disrupt. This generally creates a cause for the Silent Treatment.

When they break their silence, expect they will fling their trash and blame at you. This is their balancing act strategically perform. They are masters at it! They will keep you hooked and very insecure, while they go about their lives without a moments care of how they have made you feel.

It is always your choice to remain involved with a narcissist or not!

How they assert their control…

The silent treatment is one of the ways a narcissist will build their foundation to assert control over you. It is their aim to make you feel needy and longing for them. When you are in emotional pain, you will almost willingly engage in their game of the “Carrot and the Stick”.

They will use your most intimate vulnerabilities you’ve shared with them as their bait. This already served them in gaining your love from the get go.

The narcissist expects when they resurrect, you would have learned your lesson.  If you haven’t, the Silent Treatment is the consequence, and you now know how that feels.

When they break their silence, they expect that you will now be complacent to whatever they offer and on their terms. Or you can go through the Silent Treatment once again and the cycles will just keep repeating.

Expect that they will only throw the crumbs when they return, because they have conditioned you to have little to no expectations. Many of you are wondering, will they return? Yes, they always resurrect. Just be ready to go for another ride when they do!

The moment they feel pressure or responsibility,
they will GHOST and ABUSE.

A narcissist will build you up, just to break you down. They will go from Love Bombing to the Devaluing. You can read about this in a different article I wrote called How A Narcissist Destroys And Disarms Their Victims”. They will weaken you and your resources, leaving you vulnerable for future manipulation and have no remorse for any of it!

When you are in a state of emotional pain and confusion, your defenses are down. This is the most opportune time that a narcissist will easily manipulate you. They will be ready to throw you crumbs just to see how you will react. If you accept their token gesture and act grateful for what little they give, you may just win over their favor briefly once again. 

A narcissist wants to make as little effort as possible to obtain from you the supply they need. If you hold your breath and bite your tongue, you just may be graced with them back in your life. Until it happens again, and it will!

Over time, you learn to accept their minimal efforts made and will have little or no expectations. This is exactly what they want and is part of the reason they play these games.

They know themselves that one source of supply will never be enough. Each and every source is expendable. If you are not complacent, it makes it difficult for them to juggle other sources, so the silent treatment gives them the reprieve they need to play their new source.

Should you give them a difficult time, you will replaced as their primary supply in a heartbeat, by one more naive and easier to manipulate. Someone in transition and insecure is usually easy game.

They know exactly what they are doing, never question that.

This Silent Treatment is done
until they are ready to play with you again.

During this quiet time, the worse thing you can do is engage in their game of torture. This feeds them a source of supply without them needing to make ANY effort at all. They are counting on you going into a panic, trying to reach out to them, trying to find anyway to fix what they have broken.

They will only laugh at your efforts, share them with others and call you “crazy” while you do it. So the advice here is DON’T DO IT!

The narcissist will try to trigger your deepest wounds that you have shared with them. They will hit hard if you have betrayal issues. Surly they will manipulate with triangulation, abandonment, rejection and play with your fears of loss of their love (which is something you really never had with them anyway). They give you a false sense of security to only use it to control you. 

A secret… ALL Narcissist “HOOVER”.

Hoovering is a technique a narcissist does to test the waters after they have caused some drama. They go silent and then come back around after you have fallen apart. It’s like fresh meat, a rejuvenated supply is always a great source and a short feast!

You have successfully been conditioned to accept whatever little they offer. They want to make sure you stay in your place, right where they want you. Given you have had time to refuel, you now offer them worthy supply once again. The crumbs will be what they offer for your 5 star meal.

Aftertime, hoovering and the cycle of narcissist abuse will go quicker and become more insidious. You have now become part of this cycle yourself.

Idealization, Devaluing, Discarding and then Hoover… repeat!

When a narcissist “Hoovers” they are testing the waters. They want to see just how far they can push you and what you will tolerate. If you are still struggling and seeking them to take accountability, they will wait, bow out and try again another time.

You are not the only one in the narcissist’s life. You can count on that. They go down their list whenever they need supply. My ex had one and so did his father, for which I feel he has learned this repulsive behavior.

You can bet your bottom dollar, before they go into the silent treatment, they will already have another source of supply that will fill your shoes, if even just for entertainment. You are NEVER the only one!

The Silent Treatment Will Come To An End.

When the narcissist finally reaches out to you, you will be afraid to ask any questions. You don’t want to push any of the buttons that you have been warned created this scenario. It’s like walking on eggshells, scared to death to hear a crack. You try to prevent this torturous event from happening again. Holding back your gut feelings and not being being true to yourself, become habit, just to appease the narcissist.

We learn to suppress our feelings to avoid the unpredictable nature of the narcissist. We don’t want to provoke them again. Through the years I saw that when I tried to express any of my needs, they would be met with what I called the narcissist’s “temper tantrums”. But, even recognizing this, it didn’t make his reaction hurt any less. It was either his way or the highway.

The Silent Treatment does have an expiration date.

These cycles will never end unless you stop it! When you have finally had enough of the games they play and you realize that the narcissist is sick and suffers from mental illness, you will walk… HELL, run in the other direction.

You’ll find that the silent treatment is a gift toward freedom! You should take that quiet time to reassess what you think you are loving so much about the narcissist. Then decide if you are willing to spend the rest of your life in this abusive.

The best advice I have ever received was just WALK AWAY and DO NOT ENGAGE! This is what NO CONTACT is! And, NO CONTACT is your first step toward ending this paradox of HELL!!

No, they will NEVER change, they will do this over and over! They are FOREVER unable to attach to only one person! They have a need to assert control to love! Then they  will abuse and bail, hoover and repeat…

I much prefer the Silent Treatment, how about you?

What Supply is to the Narcissist

While you were with your narcissist, you may have…

  • Been the “ideal” source of supply.
  • Given them all the attention and adoration they needed when “they” needed it.
  • Gave up a large part of yourself to do so. 

When we fall in love, many of us want to make our love partner a part of our lives. We want to include our partner in our plans for the future. This is only normal to do you would think, right?

Well, not when you’re in a relationship with a narcissist. There is a standard short rule that applies…

You give,they take and your efforts are NEVER requited!
That’s it in a nutshell!

It is hard to admit, but you may have allowed yourself to be abused. A narcissist will demean, belittle and berate you just for having normal feelings, obvious needs and normal expectations. And yes, you’ve ALLOWED it! Lets just keep it real…

You may have allowed many of these abuses occur. Given our past experience with the narcissist, we tolerate more than most. It is our instinct to tempt the triggering of our conditioned emotions of fear and pain. Some will do anything to prevent the ongoing abuse that we know will come. The aftermath of rage from the narcissist is very frightening.

Don’t dare to rock the boat and express your feelings! After all, when a boat rocks, especially during an unexpected storm, its scary as HELL!

Do we Fight or take Flight?

You just try to hold on for dear life and not fall out of that dingy that already has leaks. The volatile tossing, thrashing and the rollercoaster of emotional waves and confusion that occur create the “fight or flight” feeling. Instinctively and for survival we try to hold on tight. Originally the narcissist misrepresented to you their role in the relationship. This was during the love bombing stages. They have conditioned you to believe that they have become your lifeline, or so you thought.

When in the midst of their chaos, anyone would have difficulty in thinking rationally. Those that have previously suffered narcissistic abuse feel it is best to try and remain status quo. You been conditioned to know what the alternatives and consequences will be should if you express any needs.

You have been lead to believe it is easier to submit then drown.  Under normal circumstances, you wouldn’t have even been in that darn boat without your own life vest, right? The narcissist has actually made you feel that they are your savior and without them you surely will not survive…

However, the narcissist will most certainly be the reason you drown! A narcissist will save themselves, before they ever consider saving you. There is no doubt about that!

You start to find yourself falling submissive to the most outrageous, rigid demands and limitations made by the narcissist. If a friend was in your same situation you would surely tell them to run like hell! If they didn’t, you would think they were nuts, right? Remember that point…

You have likely given the narcissist a sense of control over you. They begin to dictate,who you are, what you believe and even how you respond to circumstances. A once easy “NO WAY” response to  issues that were against our moral fiber are now challenged.

When we fall in love (or what we believe to be love) it is our nature to want to share our special moments, emotions, happiness and even hardships during our journey with our life partner. After all, isn’t the relationship you share an intent to build a life together? (Hmmm…. Nope, not with a narcissist)

There are four stages of a narcissistic relationship. 

The stages are textbook and are consistent to not only your situation, but ALL situations with partners that have NPD (narcissist personality disorder).

As the narcissist begins the “Second Stage” of this cycle, they start to revealing what is called their “true- self”. It is during this time that you begin to feel something just isn’t right between the two of you, they have changed. You go into a panic mode trying to figure out what has happened and make all sorts of crazy efforts to “fix it” (not even sure what it is that you need to fix) and this is when the narcissist starts pushing the limits just to see how far they can push you and how much they can get away with (the beginning of their cheat sheet of your psyche)

What is this new behavior? You feel as if you have just been knocked off your feet! You become vulnerable and unsure of where your Romeo or Juliet has gone…. Wherefore art thou ?? Revealed is this new personality and with it comes the covert abuse, manipulation, gaslighting. A narcissist will take advantage of this time of your vulnerability and emotions, truly as much as you will tolerate.  It is a pre-test. They will see how long you are wiling to stick it out and what you will tolerate. Some will stick around longer than others.

The longer a supply tolerates this abuse, the better their chance of being placed on the recall list as a continued source.

“The Devaluation Stage”.

The narcissist will begin to comment and focus on your imperfections. Some of these you have even shared with them as your accomplishments of insecurities. This begins to breakdown your self confidence and esteem. Some of your qualities they once admired about you will generally be the targets.

A few Examples:

  • Smart, they will begin to tell you you are dumb, ignorant, naive, stupid.
  • Beautiful, they will make you insecure that you have become old, fat, unattractive, not sexually appealing.
  • Successful, they will breakdown your accomplishments, take credit for them, belittle them, but surely have no problem living off the benefits of them.
  • Smart enough to call them out on their behavior, you will be labeled crazy, manic, insecure, jealous.

Once the new persona appears, the “true-self” of your narcissist, you begin to question who is this person? What have I done to change them? How can we go back in time and recapture? What do “I” need to do to fix this?

Let’s cut right to the answer… You can’t do anything to fix it!!  It is THEM!!

But, 9 out of 10 are not ready to just accept this, so we’ll keep moving forward…

“What you thought you saw, is not what you really get”!  They are a narcissist, not your soulmate, not your Romeo or Juliet. You are now standing witness to the narcissist as their mask slides slowly from their face of this “soulmate” you thought you knew.

You are now meeting the “true-self” of this love of your life.  This is the person that they really are and have always been behind the mask. You are just now living their “Act II”.

Why is the mask falling? Firstly, its because it is just to exhausting for them to keep up the facade. They secured their supply, now they are revealing themselves. Oh, don’t worry… I know some of you are thinking, “Well, they aren’t like that with their New Supply now”Yes they are, or soon they will be.

The narcissist can not change and no one is really that special. This happens in every relationship that they have and really the length and tolerance lies within the one that is vulnerable to it for whatever their circumstances. The length of how long they will suck the source from the supply will occur for as long as the supply allows it.  What looks pretty on the outside, is just as ugly on the inside as you have experienced. Remember when you tried to look at the glass half full? Do you remember when you were being love bombed? It is just like a script.  

The narcissist originally came forth to you as their representative. This was the persona that you fell for, their “false-self”. They have spent a lifetime developing this masked persona, therefore many of them can be very good at laying it on thick and make you believe every word and every promise. This was the persona that love bombed you, mimicked your ideals, morals, strengths and interests. The one that you fell hopelessly in love with. The ultimate Soulmate!! Until the mask started to slip…

It was NEVER real!
All sources of supply. run out, are replenished and are drained again. 
The cycle will repeat if you allow it.

This false-self was only a projection of what the narcissist created during the initial stage of love bombing in an effort to join with you in your life, interests and accomplishments. To secure you as a good supply. The more that you share together, the more the attraction. Some would call them a chameleon and later… a leach and emotional vampire…

You see and believe only what was projected by the narcissist. You shut down other’s opinions that see through the facade and you even deny your own gut instincts. All you can think of is how you have met your soulmate and now will live happily ever after with this perfect mirrored image, as the narcissist slowly drains you of all your energy, empathy, compassion and self worth.

The truth is, you have only met a narcissist
that is seeking a supply to resource from. That’s it!

Once the representative that you first met decides it’s safe to start letting go of their false-self and their true-self starts to appear, you will begin to see a very different person revealed. 

The relationship starts to become challenging. Things don’t seem right. Normal everyday issues start to become amplified and escalate into arguments and are very hurtful and complicated, drama! The narcissists will start to demean you, disrespect you, lie, abuse, gaslight, withhold and prepare you for the tests ahead before discard. Discard is the next stage of the narcissistic relationship cycle.     

Here comes the New Supply and Discard   

This will of course only come about when they have found a new source of supply. Generally this supply is already being groomed and will likely replace you, or be kept on the side until needed.

Narcissists you see LOVE and have truly captured the art of triangulation! Oh, how they love to triangulate! They will use one against the other. A war of jealousy and drama will occur between the supplies, while each and every act feeds the narcissist what they need to feed off to sustain.

You see a narcissist can NEVER be without supply. If you are wondering why all those ex’s still linger, its because they have all been proven to be a source of supply for one reason or another from the past. They still fill the narcissist’s ego when they need it.

Of course you will hear that they are “just friends”, but this is not the case… they are historical supplies that were left hanging and possibly hurt without closure from previous relationships. Much of a following is needed to support the air that sustains the flight under the wingspread of the narcissist. 

There are many forms of narcissism. Healthy narcissism is what most people display, however the dangerous types are  pathological and aggressive.

Pathological narcissists have a tendency to devalue people around them and are driven by their intense need for adoration to support their self inflated grandiose image.

This is where the source of supply comes in.

A source of supply serves to rid the pathological narcissist of their prevailing emptiness. They drain from their supply the good qualities that they are unable to attain themselves. The pathological narcissist plunders their source because of their envy toward those that can feel joy and happiness. They will not hesitate to woo and charm, seduce and capture a source of supply that has openly displayed empathy, goals, compassion and success. They seek out sources of supply that have moral fiber, vitality, position and hook on for the ride. 

Without notice or hesitation, should a new source come along that is more vulnerable and naive, they will quickly become critical, dismissive and set out to destroy their source of supply to justify their lack of regard and their need to move on to a new source. This leaves the narcissist’s supply confused and without closure, suffering self-doubt and a damaged esteem. 

They will display promiscuity when seeking their need for attention, adoration and ego. The way they view it, is “anyone can be replaced” once they have lost their usefulness, newness, attractiveness or appeal. They never sustain a deep emotional bond, therefore if their source becomes droning, needy or problematic, they have no use for them and move on to a new source of supply without regard, regret or the wellbeing, safety or harmony of another.  

There are no genuine feelings behind their words, therefore their emotional detachment is without pain, or remorse. Narcissist have an inability to accept fault or assume responsibility toward what hurt they may cause their discarded source. 

Narcissist do not seek attention for adoration, but for self validation, therefore the source is really irrelevant. They will never be overly concerned about what others think of them, because the narcissist’s need for validation is to boost their own ego of superiority for power and position to manipulate. They will exploit their sources for personal gain, not for status. 

This is why the narcissist needs more than one source of supply, each serves their own purpose. Be it sex, financial, children, work… each in their own will serve the narcissist in a way that will validate their self inflated ego (that is really miniscule on its own).

During the Devaluation Stage

During the devaluation stage and prior to the discard, the narcissist is feeling pretty secure that they have groomed their source of supply to stick around and the time has come for them to test the waters and see where their true-self will bring them. So, they start to change… 

If the supply is caught on the hook as the narcissist suspects, they will become submissive to the narcissist’s stages of “devaluating” and start to accept crumbs without expectations. But, if the supply is secure with themselves and starts to pay attention to their gut feelings, they RUN like heck!! 

Should a supply stick around, the narcissist will feel pretty certain that they have achieved obtaining this source and know what fulfillers they can bring to the table and what limitations they may have. A narcissist will take full advantage of their source by nature and will extract whatever they need, when it’s needed to fulfill the dark emptiness they have within themselves.

The narcissist needs many sources to meet their needs. There is never only a primary supply, but a second, third, fourth and so on. So, don’t take it personal, its not you, it’s them!

During the devaluing stage, it is hard for the source of supply to keep up that fallacy that everything is “Okay”, when it’s obviously not. They start to question why their relationship has changed. The narcissist will offer up all the reasons as to why it is you and not them and again, the narcissist without conscious will ultimately leave this source of supply in massive turmoil and confusion with no closure. It will be the final stages of the ID&Ds (idealization, devaluation and discarding).

There is nothing that a supply can do to fix this. No matter how high they jump or how many fires they role through, the narcissist has their agenda and it is without regard for you!

Once they have used up a supply, they are sure to already have sites on the new one. You can be sure that there is one out there being groomed and sooner or later, if the new source pans out, the narcissist will discard the old supply and make a new source the “Primary” supply.

If you feel a little panicked at this statement, know that they will keep you around, as long as you want to stick around and play with you like a fish stuck on a hook. They always come around for the “hoover”. This is the final and repeat stage if you fall for it.

Now that the “New Supply” has been secured, it will be safe for them to let the old supply go.  The hoover will occur only when there is trouble with the New Supply. And, there is always trouble, because you see… they will do the same to them as they have done to you. So, when that call comes, or they show up, text or awaken their flying monkeys to see how you are, it’s because they are really just returning to a source of supply that once worked for them and put up with their BS. This is not a sign of love, but a sign of abuse.

Lost in Cognitive Dissonance with a Narcissist!

Know that it is not you. You may recognize how at times you act and behave out of character, we all have! We accept blame as the Narcissist conditions us to believe it is all our fault. Whatever may have failed, the Narcissist will not accept blame, for it would require them to be accountable for their actions and behavior. This is the Narcissist performing their projection to gaslight you. A common defense that they are gifted with and have used throughout their lifetime to protect themselves from looking into a mirror.

Gaslighting is a common trait during the “Dance with the Devil”. There is a flow of many notes to a melody for this waltz that we chose to dance. The partner that we dance with however, suffers greatly from this personality disorder that you must learn to understand to survive. You likely didn’t know that your partner suffered from NPD when you started. As time goes by, we start to experience our rational gut instincts that lets us know something is wrong… even if you are not sure what that something is.

When Cognitive Dissonance starts to play havoc with our ability to reason right from wrong. From the beginning, know that you are choosing to dance, but when the signs come about that this is a toxic relationship, DO NOT IGNORE them. If you continue to deny, discount or even try to rationalize, after your gut feels and natural instincts tell you that something isn’t right, you will surly fall deeply into a world that is a manifestation of the Narcissist and what they create and want you to believe. If you continue to dance, know that this is your choice, and you really need to look at why you still wanting to dance with a partner, that will pass you off to another in a heartbeat…. or worse yet, leave you standing on the floor alone!

You may not have known from the instant you met the Narcissist that you were involved with someone that has this personality disorder. They can be very charming, charismatic and deceiving. This is their way of life, it does not change, they are in it for survival. Somewhere along the way however, you were sure to see the Red Flags. When challenging what didn’t appear to make sense, you were likely being conditioned to have a different perspective then what you felt in your gut was really going on.

Narcissist fit you for blinders to keep your focus on only what they want you to believe. You will gladly follow their lead, when they serve a purpose of filling the blanks in your life. This is something that you need to discover about yourself to stop. You have likely been told that things were your “imagination”, you are “manic”, “crazy” or created this situation yourself. Oh what a illusion they create, the backdrop to a spinning tunnel. You become confused and get lost between what is real and what is not. You are made to believe it is their way, or no way, leaving your longing to hold tight to what once was the “love of your life”, or may you have thought. During the grooming stages of an unhealthy toxic relationship, conditioning becomes part of the glue (bonding) that keeps you longing and wanting.

After the initial love bombing stages, you have fallen into what you believe to be love and chaos begins. You are left with the puzzle of how to rekindle the love, passion, adoration that you once felt. The goods that you were sold, were damaged from the get go, but maybe you didn’t see it, or maybe you thought you could fix it. Sort of like the “Beauty and the Beast” story… However, this one isn’t to be romanced in that way. From the get go, the narcissist has a plan, you play a part in it and are sure to be left in confusion at that the end.

A Narcissist surly knows how to keep you longing and on your toes, off balance during this time. Some may even introduce through triangulation an old lover, that of course is still a “only a friend” . They will make you believe that they are wanted by many, because they have developed a harem of followers that are all believing that they are special too in the Narcissist’s life. They are you, know each and every one fills a role of supply that the Narcissists needs to continue their journey. Be it adoration, status, sex, money… each has their roll to play, because not one could possibly fill that role totally. Some of you out there may think “I play that role in the relationship” and you may well. However, a Narcissist grows bored and needs a variety. I am sure that over time you began to see those signs, the loss of attention, coming and going.

A Narcissist will go from idealizing you, to devaluing you is a seconds time. If you have fallen head over heels for this relationship, if the oxytocin has been awoken it your brain, you are on for the ride! Don’t get too excited about this, the thrills are just as frightening as the chaos when it begins. This will be nothing less than an out of control rollercoaster ride that you will end with you begging to stay on, even after it makes you sick! Yes, that’s what I said… you “wanting” to remain on!!

The conditioning that occurs during this time is part of the on again, off again triggered chemicals of the brain, that leave you longing and wanting more or something that once made you feel wonderful, that now makes you sick. You want to fix whatever has gone wrong, trying to recapture what you thought you once had (that wasn’t real by the way). This chaotic mess becomes a norm, a habit and something that can be compare to addiction. Some become so wrapped up in the toxicity of this relationship, they will even begin to believe that they deserve it! Years will pass, many at that if you allow it, and yes it is you that can stop it or allow it! “I love them is why I stay”, is not the correct answer to this. You are suffering from the need to deny and the addiction to them as a result of the trauma bonds that have been created.

Now what is Love…?

Have you forgotten what genuine love, compassion and partnership really is? I know that I got lost in the cycle and had forgotten. Sometimes our common sense skips a beat with triggers of what we believe love to be and what we share with a Narcissist. Know that there is just something not right here. I have heard many stories from the followers from my site The Red Flag Society, and honestly have believed it myself at times that what I shared with my Narcissist was no more beyond what I had heard in the stories of others. We forget what it is like to love and be loved. You cast aside what we know is deserved in a healthy loving relationship. How it feels to be secure, cherished and adored has been lost. These aren’t just words to be said, they are actions. Love, when experienced in a relationship is a verb, “to cherish, adore, have affection for” , but a Narcissist uses the word “love” falsely, as a noun “an assurance of affection” .

Those that have been involved in a toxic relationship with a Narcissist gradually find love (the verb) foreign to receive as it was meant to be use as “to fall in love with another” . After time, the abuse, gaslighting, trauma bonds all becomes something you learn to accept as “love” .  When in “Love” with the Narcissist, their action actually become something that we think is acceptable.


Love is an emotion when you adore someone, respect them, want to share everything equally in each other’s worlds… Not just by words, but by actions. Desire, lust and small gestures are not love. Fidelity, chivalry, dedication, honesty… Will come from the mouth of the Narcissist as they pretend to act out all these behaviors. They put up their “False Self” and pretend to act and say what it is they what you to believe. What they are feeling and doing are very different. They will perform this charade just long enough for them to obtain from you the supply that they need.

They display small efforts, in increments as well, just enough to show their “love” and adoration, which makes you feel like something is growing between these two souls that have met. Only, you are actually developing a soulless tie to another. They make you believe they are the loving caring person you want to believe they are, and surly will let you know there must be something wrong with “YOU” when you don’t see their efforts made. These efforts are minimal and momentary, not endearing or enduring. You will be the one that is accused of acting crazy when you confront them with things that don’t appear as they seem and dare to question.

The Narcissist is INCAPABLE of…

  • seeing that their behavior is inappropriate
  • having feelings that healthy people share when in love
  • being accountable for their actions, excepting blame
  • able to understand that their actions hurt you

It is very significant for you to understand that the Narcissist is truly “incapable” of sharing the same rational thoughts as you. Many of them know right from wrong, know what they are doing may effect others, but they are incapable of having the same ability of conscious that makes them accountable for what it is that they do. Their personality disorder results in their their inability to understand that what they say, how they hurt you, as being wrong. They see you as as a target to obtain their needed supply. With this said, know they will do what they ever needed to fill their voids, just like a drug addict will do a drug, or an alcholic, take a drink.

Have you noticed that the Narcissist has an addictive behavior as well? Gambling, infidelities, OCD, drugs/drinking, porn… whatever their vices. The Narcissist doesn’t wake-up thinking that today “let me ruin a life”. They think, “today, how to get what I need”. It is about them, not you! They haven’t an understanding, nor the emotional ability to have the empathy to recognize what they do to others. This is part of their disorder. Their empathy switch is shut on off, permanently!

You see, a Narcissist somewhere along their life has been conditioned too!

A Narcissist must project onto you, their faults, their actions, their change of heart, their need to gain more supply, by making it appear that “you” did something to cause the seperation. This way is appears to those around them that they haven’t the fault and they can still look good in everyone else’s eyes. It will be their excuse to move on to a better “option”. Oh, don’t worry about that either, because they hoover over and over…

A Narcissist must make it seem that your “reactions” are “actions”, verses a response to what they have said or have created. They can not see, well maybe they can see… But don’t really care… that “they” have developed the path that they have lead you down, just to bring you to the point of breaking! This is so they can justify why “you” are the reason for their actions, verses them. An easy out as to why everything fails! They must blame you for “your” over reaction to a situation that “they create”.  For them to admit that they created the circumstance, means that they will need to be accountable for what they do. A Narcissist will never be accountable, as we have already historically seen.

They find your weakness, they threaten you with the Kryptonite.
A Narcissist will wave it around, and then…

The attack… directly to the heart….
Evil wins… Good dies…

Imagine a dagger of Kryptonite being stabbed into your heart until it runs cold… It drains you of all your energy, purity, emotions that you have shared and given to the Narcissist… And then BANG!! You feel it, you feel everything slipping through from your heart. You feel that what was left of you, slowly drip with every beat… leaving you to die inside a very slow death. The ending of a love that you thought was once… the love of your life… left without answers, endings or regard.

A life partner that adores you, that is healthy enough to have these real emotions, feelings and actually share an ability to express them, respect you, regard you… would never try to destroy the beautiful qualities of a person that is in love with them or they truly love. True love will never resonate with a Narcissist.

One of the hardest things I had found challenging when in the relationship with a Narcissist was the “Dissonance”.

“Dissonance; lack of agreement the dissonance between the truth and what people want to believe; especially: inconsistency between the beliefs one holds or between one’s actions and one’s beliefs.”

~Webster’s dictionary

When trying to rationalize the irrational we go through the challenges of words verses actions. What we know to be right verses what is wrong within the substance of our relationship. Some people are stronger than others. Some are able to escape the dissonance, others succumb to the Narcissistic abuse and loose their ability to have clear sight on who and what the Narcissist really is. It is hard to find your way from the darkness that creeps upon you in these relationships. What you know to be right becomes in conflict with you trusting your own gut feelings and what is obviously rational. You have been told for so long that your instinct was just your imagination, that you actually begin to believe it!

I heard a caption in a movie once where a therapist was speaking to a woman that was suffering from panic attacks. She wasn’t sure as to why she was having them, given the triggers were not leading to clues of her life experiences. The therapist asked her why she thought she was having these panic attacks and the woman replied…

“Because I no longer trust people.”

The therapist response was…

You see, it’s not people that you don’t trust, it is you not trusting yourself. You need to allow yourself to go with your gut feelings and know that it will guide you in the right directions”


When we are conditioned to not go with our instinctive gut feelings, we loose our able to trust ourselves in the decisions we make. This causes stress on our psyche and in some has caused panic attacks triggered by just everyday events.

A condition called C-PTSD, which stands for Complex Post Stress Disorder, is a condition one suffers from being subjected over time to a traumatic events, abuse to include powerlessness. It is much different from PTSD, for which is a condition that develops when an individual experiences, is witness to a traumatic exposure or event. Many people confuse these two types of diagnosis.

Many people that remain in toxic abuse relationships over time develop C-PTSD, as they have been conditioned to the abuse and suffer many triggers that are in their everyday life. Therefore, to reprogram ones mind to react differently to these triggers is far more difficult to achieve and not something that will occur over night. That is why people can’t “Just get over it” (how I hate when people say that…).

“Should I stay or should I go” ~ The Clash

We question why we stay? Sometimes it is to painful to leave. Once you are involved in a toxic relationship that creates a trauma bonding and you begin to see it in the irrational perspective of the Narcissist’s projected view. You are challenged to undo the mind manipulation and programming that has occurred. Their crazy rollercoaster ride is generally blamed on something you obviously did, what you have been made to believe you did that is.

DO NOT buy this… Not for a minute!! You can not accept blame for an inherent trait that developed within the Narcissist long before you ever even knew them! Don’t even second guess that!

Most of us grow up knowing the differences between what is right from wrong. Some may have grown-up with an exposure to this same type of abusive behavior and now mistaken it for love. How crazy is that you think…? Not crazy at all. “Familiarity breeds Content”, as my Grandfather use to say.

Abuse Equals Love? Really?

A Narcissist develops their way of thinking and creates their own rhythm of behavior to obtain sources they need to survive. They have grown into their traits that have served them well. It has become nature and necessary for them to survive, despite they will never admit to it. This is a part of the foundation of who they are. It becomes part of their make-up, character. There is no changing this. The only way to repair this broken house is to tear it down to the dirt and rebuild, brick by brick. There really isn’t enough time in their lifetime to do this. They have developed these traits out of their needs to survive. They know no other way. They have grown up in this sort of life themselves. Maybe an abusive parent or absent one. The youngest of siblings that needed to standout to be recognized. The child that found if “I’m going to be accused of it, why not do it” mentality. Any reaction, is some sort of supply to them.

“A little note here, this is why No Contact makes them crazy”

Narcissists seek out their sources very strategically to obtain the “supply” that they need. These traits are developed at very early stages in their life.  A Narcissist knows what to do to get the reactions from the “Source” that will give to them the “Supply” that they need at “that” time. Recognize, this is incidental. It could be as simple an example as how bad behavior as a child got them “a” reaction, any reaction. There is no differentiation between negative or positive results. It is just the reaction or the attention that they seek. Through life a Narcissist develops a behavior pattern that creates the results they want to achieve “their” goals, needs and desires. Your are just one of the tools they use to get there.

A Codependent is a perfect suitor for the Narcissist!

A Codependent personality develops in very similar ways as the Narcissist’s. A Codependent will act out as a people-pleaser.  They have found that performing people pleasing actions will bring to them the same attention they need and desire.  A clear example of this could be how they may do something they know they shouldn’t, just to please someone else. This is a part of dissonance as well. A Codependent will do things that will put themselves in harms way for the sake of saving someone else, even their abuser. They seek a source of attention (some may refer to it as a project) and they use their similar inherit traits to help a Narcissist This trait makes them easy prey to the Narcissistic abuse. Their experiences in life with similar, if not the same type of abuse, is generally how their behavioral patterns were created.

Codependents must learn to assert strong boundaries while wrapped up in their people pleasing behavior. A Narcissist will easily extort the Codependent’s good nature of wanting to sacrifice their well-being for another. A reprogramming of the way they react to situations or toxic people is a step toward them protecting themselves from those, that by nature, will take advantage of them. There are many books and videos available on the internet that offer practice guides on how to develop these skills.

Codependent’s starve for a need to be needed, wanted and feel that they can achieve this by self sacrifice and by giving. They seek attention no differently than a Narcissist, just in a different manner and by a much different trait. Their needs are similar to that of the Narcissist. Both know what they need to do to get what they want for the results are both forms of supply.

While A Narcissist is “selfish”, a Codependent is “selfless”.

The Narcissist is destructive, the Codependent is self destructive.

The Narcissist is a predator, the Codependent the prey.

The perfect fit of Yin & Yang.

Both of these personality disorders don’t really change over ones lifetime. Truly, both need to curb their behavior and place significant boundaries if they do not want to injury themselves, or anyone else. If a Narcissist recognizes that they suffer from this personality disorder, they need to try not to take advantage of others when they are in their pursuit of “Source and Supply”. However, that is like asking a vampire not to suck the blood out of you! A Codependent on the other hand, must learn that their people pleasing behavior will not achieve their goals without deteriorating their well-being. They MUST learn to place boundaries to prevent those that are toxic from taking advantage of them. A Narcissist will not have any regard for another’s kind, selfless, giving traits. This match is very common and is perfect for the dance with a Narcissist for obvious reasons. But, this is a very dangerous playground for a Codependent.

Why doesn’t my support system understand….?

People that have not experienced this cycle generally do not understand the complexity of this type of relationship. Each plays their own role. Those that have lived this cycle somehow think that their circumstance(s) and relationship(s) have been different than yours… Oddly enough, most that will criticize you for having these feelings of loving a Narcissist, generally have loved one as well. Those that have not experienced a toxic relationship, or do not share the qualities of a Codependent and can clearly see what the codependent can’t. People grow frustrated and tired of trying to offer advise and even some will become cruel out of frustration. To them which is obvious, to you is not. Imagine someone telling you there is a wall in front of you, and you keep speeding toward it! They scream, they yell… they may even throw themselves in front of you. But, you don’t listen, you keep speeding toward that wall. They can’t make you see what you do not.

Which brings us back to the “Cognitive Dissonance”

The people in your life that love you, know you for years, know you before the Narcissist in your life, such as family, friends… all wonder, “What the heck are you doing?“. I personally experienced an inability to explain this to others when I was asked. This is part of the “Cognitive Dissonance”, knowing the right from wrong and still trying to justify the wrong to be right… even though it made no sense, not even to myself.

When we know things that occur are not right, when we know that another is acting in ways that is unacceptable to just about anyone that is healthy in standards… We have a want to defend their behavior, hide the circumstances, pretend that such isn’t really happening.  We try to protect our core feelings by doing this. We have been conditioned and believe that “No one knows my Narcissist as well as I do”

This is not true, it really is NOT true! We want to believe that we know them better than anyone and you may know the patterns… Only, your rational thought has been altered by the conditioning of the abuse that you have experienced when you had dared to believe differently in the Narcissist. Therefore, in a polite way said… YOUR NOT THINKING RIGHT! Not right enough to really see or understand that you are wrapped up in is an abusive toxic relationship.

You have forgotten what is right because of how you have been conditioned to believe what is wrong. You have become the victim to the Narcissist’s masked face, seeing only what you once saw they were, which is the “False Self”. The one you met during the “Love Bombing” stage. The one that previously put you on the pedestal and promised you the world. How wonderful all the love and adoration, so intense, so seductive. Your thoughts are now clouded. Dr. Jekyll really is Mr. Hyde!

If you have found this site or others like it, you are looking for an understanding of why you love the unlovable. The narcissist betrays and you haven’t really ever known their “True self”. They don’t even know their real self. The Narcissist will always believe they are justified in their actions and will slaughter those that love them when ever challenged or are threatened to be demasked. You will go from being the sun that lights the sky (for which is how they once portrayed you to everyone they knew), to becoming the dark, crazy, obsessive maniac that causes their life to not go as they planned… This is how they justify what they have done to everyone they know. It gives them a good reason why they had to replace you with a new supply. You have now become the sacraficial lamb on theit “slanderous” campaign. The Narcissist needs to do this to retain their mask.

Don’t believe that this behavior is directed toward only you. They will treat their family, co-workers, friends and yes, even their children the same way. Unfortunately, children grow up seeing this behavior as normal and begin to believe or mimic it as the think it is right. Or, they will submit to it becoming the Yin to a Yang, trying for a lifetime to please the unpleasable. Some children of a Narcissistic parents will become wiser for it, or as time goes by, find shame, embarrassment. They become confused and may unfortunately without the right guidance, become prey to more narcissistic predator throughout their lifetime.

When a healthy partner, friend, family member, professional, teaches a developing mind that is seeking vision into their trauma bonding to a Narcissist, they must help the victim to see the world for the way it really is. They can help to recondition the heart of those that have loved a Narcissist. To help someone through the process of what they have experienced you must have patience, compassion and true insight of the trauma bond that they have been exposed to. Some help isn’t always the right help. Judgement must be left outside the door.

There is always a development of “Dissonance” when trauma bonded to the Narcissist. When we think about it and try to rationalize it, we go to war within our own belief system. This happens almost the same way logic becomes corrupted in a computer. The Blue Screen pops up and you are about to lose all of your data and go into a total panic mode. You get nervous trying to figure out how you are going to prevent this from happening. Before the seconds tick by and everything you have invested into this relationship disappears, every minute of the time you have spent with your Narcissist is all erased… you go into a total panic stricken mode and it scares the hell out of you!

If you have found this article, it is likely time to re-boot!!

Take the opportunity when it is given to re-boot the way you think without loosing all of your personal data, only what was programmed into your mind, heart and soul by the Narcissist. Don’t allow what you know to be wrong be altered by the Narcissist, as they are pro’s that will make you believe what they say and do is right. It will not serve you to follow them down there yellow brick road. This only serves the Narcissist the “Supply” that they need. They will use up and then toss you away when you are depleted. They will resurface however, should they see you have replenished. So, if you are one of those that seeks the hoovering, know it will come, when you have more supply to offer.

The definition of “Dissonance” is one word you MUST recognize and understand if you are trying to heal from a toxic relationship that has trauma bonded you! It is the key of understanding the what and the whys of your relationship(s) that you are looking for. This is why you can not see clearly to break from bond that was created between you and the Narcissist. The feelings that have hooked you and are embedded in your mind and soul, are as a result of how your belief system has been altered. Know that you have been a fish on this hook the whole time… just bobbing around in the water. Never to be reeled in, or released.

I had gone absent many times from my RFS page over the years. Either I had fallen back into the routine with my Narcissist, having my waltz with the devil, or found it myself hard to continue to infiltrate myself with knowledge and writings while I was living a contradiction to my beliefs. Sometimes to heal, you need a break from even the thought of what has happened to take you off course and direct your focus on self and creative projects that would distract you from pain and sorrow. I know as a result of my decisions to dance with that devil, I found it very difficult to face the realities of how it took away precious moments of my life that can never be regained. I have come and gone from RFS and believe me when I tell you, such has brought my life and health to my knees at times. I suffered near death, self-destruction and have had much fear that I would not rise again from this experience. As a testament to myself… I can say I am young, intelligent, attractive and successful in my own right, but have been a fool for the Narcissist that I chose to fall in love with. I have recognition through my own efforts made in life, and I have almost allowed them to slip through my fingers while being lost in the FOG loving my Narcissist. I fell victim to the master of manipulation… The Hyde, verses Dr. Jekyll…. just like you… and had loved even both. Yes, I said both!! I am sure some that read this can relate. I have been the Supply for the Narcissist in my life and felt empowered while being it, not realizing that I was losing myself while doing so.

Each Source Offers a Different Supply and there is ALWAYS More Than One!

Yes, they have a superior talent and ability in obtaining resources. One could even consider them an expertise in this way of life. They have found the tools needed to obtain from every victim. What it is that they need for their Narcissistic Supply, is something you have to give and damn it, their gonna get it! No matter what it takes! Know that you are NEVER the only, there is ALWAYS another that has been groomed awaiting in the wings. A new supply is always lined up and being prepared to fill in where you don’t and can’t. You very well may be that other one for another now. I called it becoming the “other woman to the other woman”. For whatever that one thing, that one need… you have been chosen to fulfill this supply in their life. You need to know however, that all your efforts made, everything you give, will fall into the never ending black pit of a person with this personality disorder, and never will that pit be filled…


Have your eyes wide open. Don’t be foolish to think that there there isn’t another. There is always another supply that will fill those shoes, another victim awaiting for your shoe to drop, so they can fill it! Oddly enough, they happily step into those shoes, because she have met the “False Self”, just like you did in the beginning. Know that in time, the mask will fall and they will find in the Narcissist the same traits as you, and remain victim to them as long as they allow themselves to. Remember the love bombing stages? They too will think that they are the “special one”, that they are the “only one”, but really there is no “ONE” ever, there are many in a Narcissist harem. The Narcissist requires many supplies and varieties to keep their needs met.

The solace you may find is that they are no different than you, nor will have anything differently than you have shared with the Narcissist. They never change and it is only a matter of time until they unmask themselves. They are truly just another victim to the prey. And, if you dare to be jealous or envious, just know… that they too will suffer the same cycles. Feel more pity that pain for them. It never fails.

When the ID&Ds occurs, Idealization, Devaluation and then the Discarding… know the cycles, behaviors and circumstances. They never change and once you start to see the pattern, they are like clockwork. I found at times that I could even see it coming, or what was to happen next. A Narcissists behavior is text book. Just follow the story line. Just know, they will never become humble…

The truth is that they don’t even know what it is that they do. It’s a part of their personality disorder. At times I still hurt for my Narcissist knowing that he doesn’t even know the harm he afflicts upon others, or maybe he knows, but has an inability to have the regard. I thought I was the “Beauty… to that Beast”. To this day I know that I am probably the truest friend he ever had, as he still regards me as his best. This is because I never would lash out the harm, when I was struck with his venom and Lord knows, I can be venomous if needed. But, I don’t want to change who I am for all the hurt that I have experienced. I like me… and the lesson I’ve learned was to forgive the unforgivable, but never allow it to occur again. This gave me peace.

The hundreds of articles that I have shared on RFS, have been as a result of my own need to find answers… I know that so many go through the same hurt and challenges. I just hope and pray that at least one victim is validated, finds within my words and experiences what they need to hear. I hope all find peace and freedom from the bondage of the Narcissist and not waste another precious moment of their lives. Give of your heart to those that will cherish it.

I, as the founder of RFS, have been writing a book for a few years, and have outlined much of what I have learned from this Personality Disorder and how victims have been affected, even some right from my pages have lost their lives as a result of what abuse they have endured… I’ve witnessed it and have been saddened by it over and over. Please embrace all that is good, know you are worth the love of first, loving yourself… There are no stories or articles that you will find out there that will ever say that the Narcissist will change, or magic makes your circumstance different. There is hope that they do… but, it’s really not possible… It’s more likely you will meet a unicorn. They are to conditioned. From the time of being a small child, they know no other way. My friends and I use to say “you speak to them in English and they know nothing but Chinese, but if you spoke in Chinese, they would only understand English…”. You will never be on the same page as them, trust those words…

Embrace yourself, embrace those that love you. I am sure many have distant from you during the times of needed support. Know they see when you are trapped in the cycle. They have likely tried their best (or I should say, the best they know how), to help untangle those webs you are lost in… but they can’t stop it, they can’t stop you… only you can stop you!

RFS developed for the purpose of The Red Flags Society “Seeing the Red Flags, and why we chose to ignore them”. Again, Dissonance is probably the most important, most significant word that you must understand during healing. Understanding the confusion and why you are going through the pain… will bring you to a cognitive understanding of why you were there to begin with.

RFS embraces you all… We are in this together. One day at a time, one step at a time… The FOG will lift and the sun will once again shine once you are able to see clearly again…. NO CONTACT!